body image – Haylie Lashta

Breastfeeding and Cancer

August 10, 2020 by haylielashta, posted in body image, Breast Cancer, breast surgery, Cancer

I am angry. Inexplicably angry that I don't get to choose the end point. That it is effectively chosen for me. This. THIS is what enrages me most. And yet, rage nor anger are the right descriptors. It's devastation: severe or overwhelming shock or grief

The Impact on the Littles

July 24, 2020July 20, 2020 by haylielashta, posted in Advocate, body image, Breast Cancer, Cancer, healing, health care, human nature, self acceptance

What I think many people and providers forget is the impact that the diagnosis, treatment and procedures have on my little people. Em is 6 and D is 3.

Working on Acceptance

July 6, 2020 by haylielashta, posted in body image, Breast Cancer, breast surgery, Cancer, cancer surgery, double mastectomy, hardship, healing, human nature, mastectomy, Recovery, self acceptance

It comes in waves. The loathing, disgust, and desperation for what was. This absolutely was the best decision - to have a double mastectomy - for a number of reasons for me. BUT. That doesn't mean it's not hard mentally and emotionally.