Parenting is hard. We're all just making it up. But at least these kitties will bring a little joy into our current lock down status.
This post is a tribute to my Gus puppy. Today is his birthday. This day last year we discovered that he didn't have diabetes like I had thought. No, he had an aggressive cancer that was ravaging his body. My beautiful, loyal, goofy, wonderful soul pup was very sick and there was nothing I could do about it.
Last years memories of the holiday festivities are weighing heavy on my heart. My emotional state being a mix of feeling like someone has scrubbed everything on an old-fashioned washboard, and wrung me out; combined with the frantic frenzy of "I'M FINE, IT'S FINE"
Turning back time is something we can do in writing. Let's hop in a time machine and look at December 23, 2019...
I'm fundraising for breast cancer research
Life this year has been a ride - water rapids on a rollercoaster through fire sort of ride. At first it seemed like there were too many people on the boat. You can't quite remember who all is there and what they do but they are all super important. Onco, breast surgeon, radiation onco, nurses, chemo, gynecologist... They feel like buoys to help keep the boat balanced and safe.
Being breast cancer awareness month I am acutely aware of some of the interesting things that we say to 'raise awareness'. For me I find most (not all) of these things funny, but do they really raise awareness? "Save second base!" "MANogram - place breasts here"
Ultimately the recommendations of my care team made our decision for us, however, even if I didn't have to be going through what I am currently, we would likely still have come to the same conclusion. Having extended family members also immunocompromised impacts our decisions even during the 'regular' cold and flu season. No matter what decision someone else has made in regards to school and where they sit from a risk level, I still support you. I believe in freedom of choice. However, I also believe in our social contract. This essentially boils down to the fact that we don't live in a vacuum.
I have had a swack of appointments in the last couple of weeks along with a very exciting - yet nerve wracking - surprise phone call.
My grief and love is still strong. Those that don't have a pet that is family will never truly understand. I can't imagine any other way to celebrate international dog day than to pay tribute to our Gus pup.